I can’t front
It still hurts
& I hate it
My chest pounds
My heart feels heavier
I can’t swallow once or twice
Without wanting to vomit
But there’s nothing to give back
You left me empty just as I was filling myself back up
I’m just stuck in a moment
It won’t go away & it won’t wash away
No matter how many tears I cry ; the wounds just keep on reciprocating
I ran out of band aids and let you come have a touch
Before I was ready to heal
Carelessly, ripping off more than I was ready to let go
Why is it so hard to love just me?
Why must there always be someone else?
I can’t find a more softer way to say it
But there’s not many ways to accept in words
That you cheated
&; as much as I love to think I’m always on your mind
I know that I’m just another one of them.
i so identify with this and have been in your place. it is painful
Omg so sorry to hear that. Yes it’s a defeating feeling that truly leaves a sting for a long time.